Internship costs= admitting I can't do it alone.

I've decided to humble myself a bit (ok, a LOT) and developed a creative way to hopefully be able to apply for internship this year. I've already turned in a few applications, but without more funding I won't be able to apply to too many more... and if I actually get interviews, I may not be able to get to them without funds to pay for travel costs. 
So I am reaching out and asking for help to be able to afford this process.

http://crowdfundedu.com/fundraiser/gradschoolproblems

There isn't room for too much pride when you're in graduate school, which is a pretty difficult thing for me to swallow, but when it comes down to it.. if it is between keeping my pride, and being able to reach my goals... I choose to take a big heaping bite, swallow that pride, and wash it down with a shot of Tequila--only if you're buying though ;)

Vintage Obsession

I think I have a problem.
I've recently discovered the vintage section on Etsy. I always knew this site existed, but thought it was just crafts, jewelery, etc so I thought it was a neat idea but never anything I checked religiously or anything.
I'm not even sure how it happened, actually. One day I just found myself clicking page after page after page of adorable vintage clothing and finding some wonderful things that I fell in love with. There are a lot of items that are just way out of my price range, but when you're searching you can just search "vintage dresses" with a max price of say, $15 and you'll still have pages full of cute things to look at.
I've made a few purchases off the site and so far I've been very pleased with my choices. My first pieces were the double strand pearl necklace in the photo on the left and the black cinch belt with silver buckle in the photo down below. I absolutely love both. They are awesome pieces to add to my wardrobe. The next ones I bought were the black dress and the flower print blouse. I am very pleased with the condition both these items are in and also how they fit.
It's always a gamble ordering clothes off the internet, especially when it is a used item and there is rarely (depending on the shop you by from) returns so it's either it fits, or you're out the money with an item you can't wear.
That is why it is wonderful when the shop owners post very specific details about the items, measurements, any defects in the article, how it fits them (and what size they are or the model in the photo is so you're able to gauge it compared to you).

 This way there hopefully won't be any surprises and you'll be pleased with your purchases. I didn't read the measurements correctly for the black dress ,and actually it is smaller than a size I would normally wear. I can still get it on, but it is definitely very snug. I love it though, so I will smile through the discomfort and wear it anyway ;).

It doesn't sound like a problem I suppose, I found a site to get cheap adorable vintage clothing that I like that fits.
The problem, is that I find myself checking it all the time now! And every time I do, I find unique, wonderful cheap items that would compliment my wardrobe perfectly. (still doesn't sound like a problem if you ask me!) The problem is that my wallet is not full of endless amounts of money. So I can't buy everything I want, and I've bought more than I ever should have.
I've actually got 2 more items on the way. Another blouse and a Lou Taylor bag... but for $7 a piece, how could I say no?
I know, I know. I've got to stop. I've got a problem.

Vegas. I'm so money, baby.

Grad school comes with, what feels like, constant rejection. I wonder if I'll ever get used to that feeling. It's so hard not to take it personally and not feel like I am being rejected, and that it is simply I am not the right fit or that there are other candidates more suited for the position.
It's really easy to just feel like I can hack it. Like I'm not smart enough/good enough/competent enough.
More rejection was dumped on me today. I even wore pink, which just makes it more humiliating. 

On a completely unrelated note.
Booked a flight today to VEGAS!

Some of us from my program are going after we finish our comp. exams in June. Short trip, just a couple days since, assuming all goes well, we'll start the clinic the following Monday.
I haven't been to Vegas in years. I'm so stoked. I really can't afford it by any means, since this last loan check is supposed to last me until September. It's only May and I'm already strapped.
I need this vacation though. I deserve it. I justified purchasing the tickets as a birthday present for myself, since that ugly thing is looming near and I'm dreading it so badly.
I am in love with slot machines. I play the nickle ones, because I don't actually want to lose big, but secretly hope I can score a little cash. Last time I was in Vegas I won about $330 on the nickle slots and only put in about a total of $20...so we'll see how I do this time.
So excited for this little adventure with some new friends. Incentive to get all this stuff done for the quarter and comps in the next month.
I'll have to leave the money worries for another time.